War Inside My Head

Napalm, napalm, napalm showers
Showed the cowards
We weren't there to mess around

Heat exhaustion
Mind distortion
A military victory
Mounted on innocent ground

Hearing voices from miles away
Saying things, never said
Seeing shadows in the light of the day
Waging a war inside my head
War inside my head

Years and years of
Bloodshed and warfare
Our mission was only to get in and kill

A free vacation
Of palm trees and shrapnel
Trading innocence
For permanent psychotic Hell

Hearing voices from miles away
Saying things, never said
Seeing shadows in the light of the day
Waging a war inside my head

Feeling strangers staring my way
Reading minds, never read
Tasting danger with each word I say
Waging a war inside my head

Where Are You Now

[studio demo from 1997, recorded during the making of the album ]
[falling into infinity. ]
- john petrucci

Carry it away
Carry it away again
Have nothing to say
Nothing to say again

No one needs to be alone
Get my ego on the phone

Walking again
Walking again today
Who will I drain?
Who will I drain today?

No one wants to see you drown
And no one wants to be let down

Sorry about your secret garden
Is it too late to beg your pardon?
Didn't expect your soul to harden
Are you already gone?
Too late...

Where are you now?
Blind and deaf
No one's left to come around
Where are you now?
Lost out there
Where eyes no longer stare

You read the writing on the wall
Will jesus catch you when you fall?
Heaven's filled with empty prayers
Pray too hard and no one cares

Sorry about your secret garden
Is it too late to beg your pardon?
Didn't expect your soul to harden
Are you already gone?
Too late...

Where are you now?
Blind and deaf
No one's left to come around
Where are you now?
Lost out there
Where eyes no longer stare

So there you are
Beyond the crowd
What do you hear to talk so loud?
Beneath the wall
Is where you'll fall
And wanting more
And losing all
(you're one step away)
Losing all
(you're one step away)
Losing all

I'm gonna comfort you
I'm gonna comfort you
I'm gonna comfort you
I'm gonna comfort you
Nothing's gonna
No one's gonna comfort you

Where are you now?
Lost out there
Where eyes no longer stare

Where are you now?
Lost out there
Where eyes no longer stare

Where are you now?
Lost out there

Where are you now?
Lost out there

Winter

- ("uncovered" show at ronnie scott's jazz club, london - 1/31/95)
- (from the "subconscious" cd)
- tori amos (from the album "little earthquakes")

Snow can wait, I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose, get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart
When I think about winter
I put my hand in my father's glove
I run off where the drifts get deeper
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice
'you must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I can't always be around.'

When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, change my dear
Never change

Wither

Let it out, let it out, fill the empty space
So insecure find the words and let it out
Staring down, staring down, nothing comes to mind
Find the place turn the water into wine

But I feel I'm getting nowhere
And I'll never see the end

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I breakdown and let the story guide me

Turn it on, turn it on, let the feelings flow
Close your eyes, see the ones you used to know
Open up, open up, don't struggle to relate
Lure it out, help the memory escape

Still this barrenness consumes me
And I feel like giving up

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I breakdown and let the story guide me
I wither and give myself away

Like reflections on the page
The world's what you create

I drown in hesitation, my words come crashing down
And all my best creations burn into the ground
The thought of starting over leaves me paralyzed
Tear it out again, another one that got away

I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear

I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I breakdown and let the story guide me
I wither and give myself away

Like reflections on the page
The world's what you create
The world's what you create

Let it out, let it out

You Not Me

Being around you is driving me crazy
Watching you run is making me lazy

You're trying to buy a place in my head
Telling me lines I've already read
Speaking my name, you're tryin' to confuse me
Say it again, you're starting to lose me

That's alright, I'm okay, it happens every single day
It's all the same but I'm not blind

It's all about you, not me
It's all about the things that you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

It's all about you, not me
It's all about you, not me

You're building my prison brick by brick
Eating your words is making me sick

You get what you want 'cause nothing is sacred
You're reading my mind and leaving me naked
You say I gotta give before I receive it
One of these days I'll believe it

It's all about you, not me
It's all about the things that you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

It's all about you, not me
It's all about you, not me

That's alright, I'm okay, it happens every single day
It's all the same but I'm not blind

It's all about you, not me
It's all about the things that you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

It's all about you, not me
It's all about you, not me
It's all about you, not me

You or Me

I need some pencils
Will you be using 'em for company business?
One eight hundred nine nine two
For cash back, see store for details

Meeting rebel leaders, he says
He also plans to thank Russian soldiers
For their work in Chechnya
Work better

People around here are driving me crazy
Watching them run is making me lazy
Trying to buy a place in my head

Selling me lines I've already read
Speaking my name to try to confuse me
Say it again you're starting to lose me

That's alright, I'm okay
It happens every single day
It's all the same but I'm not blind

Never mind, it's either you or me
And I can't see the difference
You or me, I find that I can't see the difference

When are these changes going to stick
Eating my words is making me sick
Some of the time I'm practically sacred

Reading my mind is leaving you naked
You'd rather give it away than receive it
One of these days I'm gonna believe it

That's alright, I'm okay
It happens every single day
It's all the same but I'm not blind

Never mind, it's either you or me
And I can't see the difference
You or me, I find that I can't see the difference

You or me and I can't see the difference
You or me, I find that I can't see the difference
You or me

That's alright, I'm okay
It happens every single day
And I can't see the difference
It's all the same but I'm not blind

Never mind, it's either you or me
That's alright I'm okay
It happens every single day

I find that I can't see the difference
It's all the same but I'm not blind

My position was that if anybody who's a Christian would go there
They're not only aligning themselves to the demagogue
They're aligning themselves to the Antichrist
Which by the way, this man is an Antichrist

Did you see the video?
I didn't need to see the video to call the guy an Antichrist
If you can truly appreciate sins
So that we'll go to heaven anyway
He came to save his people from their sins

Your Majesty

Do you need the walls to spread apart?
Something's been sent here,
to free you, I am told.
A rising power that will break you,
Break you out you'll see,
Your fantasy unfold.
It can be won.
We will be one.
So many eyes that never open.
too many chains that bind
the dreams that make us see.
There are no prisons in our kingdom.
Will you give your hand?
Say "yes, Your Majesty!"
It can be won.
We will be one.
Always go on,
Never saying you are done.
We're always looking for
A place where magic passion soars.
You'll find that if you're with us,
the magic's in your heart!
It can be won.
We will be one.
Now can you see
The gift we bring...
Your Majesty!

The Spirit Carries On

Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say "Life is too short"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more
Have I lived before
Or could this be all that we've got?

If I die tomorrow
I'd be alright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
I'd be alright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I'm no longer here
But please never let
Your memories of me disappear"

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has help me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I'm here
It's perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
I'd be alright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on